It's been a strange three or four days,
and yet, not bad.
The organizing thing for me has kicked into high gear,
from hanging files and category slots,
to getting back onto an electronic calendar,
something I haven't attempted in many years.
For the past three days I have been living my life
the way I want to be.
I have been organized, getting good rest,
eating well, even exercising,
and getting things done.
Then this afternoon
I allowed myself to get stressed.
It was not fun.
And it's ok.
I have seen the way it can work,
and when it works well,
when it works efficiently,
then everything else
has a chance to fall into place.
Priorities can emerge
from thought and reflection.
Focus can pave the way
to producing beautiful pieces of art.
Time can allow it all
to actually have a chance of taking place.
The difference, I believe, is intention.
Do I live my life openly and spontaneously,
simply waking each day
and letting come what may?
Or do I plan it, and organize it,
That is an important question.
I don't have it fully answered.
But I am pretty damn sure that it takes planning
to avoid walking blindly
into things we should have seen coming.
Some spurious thoughts to my friends
on this eve of New Year's Eve.
I love you,